I aten't ded
16 September 2019 10:49![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
nym_wibbly
I aten't ded, but I am in the grip of a severe depressive episode. Don't read too much into that - I'm safe and looking after myself, I'm not even that unhappy except when I can't sleep, but the coping strategies and techniques that serve me so well, and the aforementioned looking-after-myself, take all my available willpower, just now. Turning on the computer has been beyond me this past week, and comprehending anything on the intertubes when I do turn it on is a massive struggle.
No need to worry about me, not even a little bit, but I think we can reasonably expect me to be utterly useless to the rest of humanity until this passes. After several years of battling both the welfare system and living with a major surgery at some vague point in my future, of coping well with all that on top of health problems that are, quite frankly, hard enough to live with all by themselves, I think I'm probably owed a few months of utter "nope, can't" while my body and soul heal.
Oh, but I have learned to make ghee (from blocks of butter, not the proper start-with-ur-cow way) and chapattis. Mmm.
Thanks for the kind thoughts and well-wishes!
No need to worry about me, not even a little bit, but I think we can reasonably expect me to be utterly useless to the rest of humanity until this passes. After several years of battling both the welfare system and living with a major surgery at some vague point in my future, of coping well with all that on top of health problems that are, quite frankly, hard enough to live with all by themselves, I think I'm probably owed a few months of utter "nope, can't" while my body and soul heal.
Oh, but I have learned to make ghee (from blocks of butter, not the proper start-with-ur-cow way) and chapattis. Mmm.
Thanks for the kind thoughts and well-wishes!
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Date: 17 Sep 2019 09:46 (UTC)I've been wondering if and how to reach out to you over the past couple of days. Thanks for letting us know what's going on! *hugs*
-intoni
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Date: 17 Sep 2019 12:37 (UTC)Just want to say that I miss you. Even when our conversation is sporadic, I like having you there in the chat window of an evening.
Take your time resting up and getting through the current phase. I'll be here when you're ready and able to engage again.
*lots of hugs*
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Date: 20 Sep 2019 02:05 (UTC)no subject
Date: 22 Sep 2019 06:20 (UTC)Miss you, but I'd far prefer you to spend your energy on socialising instead of getting better and surviving depression.
Sending you so much love and sweet feline cuddles <3